Monday, October 11, 2010

I love that he'll be predictable

Jordan's away, and the "I miss him" feelings are growing. Days are brighter with his hugs. He's been away this long weekend and he'll be back in 12 hours.
6 AM.

That's early for both of us. In our "normal" life, he wakes at 7AM, stumbles in my room, wakes me and we snuggle til we're done ~ hugging, pillowfighting, laughing our good mornings.

I Love knowing in 12 hours he'll be home, and he'll hug his dad bye, and run to my room to snuggle, til we're done.

Love him.

Update - as predicted... he did! I grabbed the camera to share with you.

Friday, October 8, 2010

I Love Snuggling

I feel bad for some of my friends. They also have boys nearing their tweens, they're 8,9, going on 10, and those boys are growing up and going their own way already. I am grateful that time is not here for me yet. (*I'm also grateful that I'm open to the fact that the time might not come.. 85% of autistic people live with parents/caregivers)

My son and I awake at 7 each day, actually he wakes at exactly 7 each day, comes to my room and wakes me up as he crawls in with me.

"Good morning mommmy" and we lay there and snuggle. We talk about dreams we had, plans for the day, fun we had yesterday. We hug and we laugh, hug some more, laugh some more. Sometimes we have tickle fights, sometimes I have to listen to another Mario commentary, but I don't mind. Sometimes we lay there for 10 minutes, sometimes a whole hour passes! And.. not to make you jealous.. but we also have night time snuggles/reading time too!

I think of my friends, how their hugs are declining. Their kids want to run out the door and away from them, more often than they want to be with them.

I couldn't handle it. I think. I can only know what my world has given me, what I've become accustomed to.

Perhaps if Jordan wasn't "Jordan" I'd be a soaps watcher, perhaps he'd be in a public school, perhaps we'd both eat at Mcdonalds (god forbid) perhaps we'd both be 800 poundsand love corn dogs, and not know how great gardening is ~ Perhaps WalMart, presciptions, fast food, gas guzzling vehichles, and personal care products!!!!!

Even worse...perhaps we'd never have experienced what a close parent/child relationship is and how amazing it can be.

I wonder alot now, how different my life would be, had my child been born NT (neurologically typical) I honestly, think it would not be this good!

I hope for you, parent of the NT.. that you can hold onto that love, that it remains close to you and that even if they run out the door more often than not, that you can still feel the love I get to feel every day. I hope your child stops to hug you on the way out..

Another reason why I love Autism <3